Focus

     Normally, I am a glass half full kind of person.  I can find the silver lining in my situation almost all the time.  Lately, I have lost my focus...or more accurately, my focus has been on the wrong things.  I don't like seeing the negatives of life, it's draining me.  I need to find my positivity again.  

     I am in a small group study focusing on prayer.  I am a big believer in prayer...I have seen the positive results of prayer.  Last week our focus was on prayers of thanksgiving.  I needed to spend some time being thankful, but I didn't.  I continued to wallow in self-pity...and I am over it.  The last few weeks have been depressing and I am ready to focus on the positive.  

     One of the things that brought me down was minor illness in my family.  First Delainey was sick, then me, then Delainey again.   Yes, it sucked that we were sick.  It was no fun seeing Delainey feverish and missing the first day of school.  BUT...Jim and I were able to adjust our schedules and be home to take care of Delainey.  We have access to health care in our area.  We have insurance that means we are able to afford health care and medicine.  And most of all, we are now healthy.

     My job has been stressing me out.  It's a long drive each way.  I have been overwhelmed.  BUT...I have a job.  I have been there for a long time.  I have a boss who allows me some flexibility with my time.  I have pretty good benefits.  Most of the time, I like my job.

     I have so much to be thankful for...so much positive in my life.  I am letting go of the negative.  I am going to focus on the positive things in my life, the things that make me happy.  I am going to spend some time tonight looking at the stars and hoping to see some shooting stars.  Tomorrow, I am going to spend the morning with Delainey and take her to school.  I am going to have coffee and donuts with a friend.  I am going to get new tires on my car.  I am going to spend some time reading my Bible and giving thanks.  

     I am going to focus on the positive things in my life again.  I am going to become myself again!